another day another donut

Well, today my therapist decided to start me on Prozac to help with my depression.  However, she did inform me that the owner of the practice would only allow her to refill my Klonopin Rx a few times, as he feels the controlled substance is too much of a nuisance to manage.  She will refill at a reduced dosage needed but for twice a day and I should take both at one time to be able to get enough relief to leave my home.

This is disturbing to me and I have discussed it with my primary care doctor who recommends that I look for a new therapist.  My therapist matches up with me wonderfully and I shouldn't have to change for such a silly reason.

So, I'm feeling uncertain today.

I have decided that I will drive to Hatteras on Monday on my own to spend time with my family while Mike stays home with the dogs.

I feel guilty that I need to do this for myself, but Mike has never been the type of person to go out of his way to arrange any type of activity or vacation for us.  We've been sitting here for over 7 years doing nothing in our retirement using the excuse that we have dogs.

These are not just my dogs, I am not the only one responsible for finding pet sitters.  We both agreed that we wanted to travel during retirement and that hasn't happened.  I need something to look forward to.  Even if it's just a vacation to a state park, just something new to explore.

Repeating the same routine day after day makes me want to stay in bed and sleep.  I would rather just die today and have it over.