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When you're told you always have to have things your way ...... 

1.  Your adult son has a severe mental illness and hates you, does not ever want to be in your life.

2.  Your only other child was stillborn at 6 months and no one, not even your husband remembers or ever grieved her loss.

Those are two of the best things ever in your life that went just exactly as you wanted.

Things that wash over you when all you want to do is die.